I need the cure, to bad health.
:/



As anyone, everyone, ect who even bothers to read my journals knows, I had a few promised art works that I'd had to do or were done. Mainly if not souly for Who is an utter sweetheart and a fantastic artist - shamelessly highly recomending you check her out -

And I'm sure it's evident; that I haven't gotten it in or much of anything else done. I submitted some random bullshit for my two years of being diabetic; but for the most part I have not been here, submitting what I should or coming up with other things even.

This time however, it's not even really my health that's been keeping me away and off the road of promised submissions.

My Papa [[ Grandfather ]] had recently come up with merca among a slew of other health problems, with stats that were very concerning revolving around his health as a diabetic, an alcoholic, and a person in general. Luckily; he's pulled through. He looks better than ever and has lost a lot of weight; most of it was water weight. There were scares of possible heart failure ect ect ect. But he's fine now and he's looking and acting better than he has in the past two years.

My Aunt Jo however, has recently [[ 03-29-2009 ]] died. We'd had her in the hospital for a random spontanious sudden sever illness. 911ed her out of the house and everything. She's had juvinile rumatoid arthritis since she was quite young. But she died from meningitis. I know I'm spelling all of these things horridly, please forgive me. Weakened immune system, ect ect. She was living off of machines, and her husband [[ my uncle ken ]] finally had to pull the plug, and let her body die. Her brain had already died.


And now; my damn near two month running boyfriend and four year running best guy friend Brian has been coming down with severe chest pains, ontop of a depression he won't talk about with me and recently a friend of mine that I considered to be a very close friend has been growing away from me and another very good guy friend of mine is having troubles that he's turning to me for help with on. Not that I mind that at all! I luv him and I'm always there for a friend despite anything else that goes on around me.


It just feels as if it's been half a year already, just dealing with my own health issues and worrying about and having to deal and cope with everyone elses health issues as well. I've been stressed out, and emotionally wrung through. So again, I'll have to apologize for not getting the things I promised done, done.


Actually, I've done a lot of drawing. I did in fact re-draw 's character, but I didn't like it. Wound up finding the first one I did and quite honestly I just don't feel satisfied with either. But I'll post them up as soon as I can get around to doing so; and I feel compelled to color them with photoshop, so I'll probably take longer just for that.


I'm going to get running. I have coloring to get done and such. I'm sorry, my life here has been getting overwhelming as it constantly does, and it's gotten in the way again, and it makes me look a mighty poor person here for those of you that I've honestly enjoyed talking with and doing art for/with. I've missed you all and hopefully you won't think too ill of me. Luv to you all and hopefully you all are having a much better time with life. <3