I need the cure, to bad health.
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As anyone, everyone, ect who even bothers to read my journals knows, I had a few promised art works that I'd had to do or were done. Mainly if not souly for Who is an utter sweetheart and a fantastic artist - shamelessly highly recomending you check her out -

And I'm sure it's evident; that I haven't gotten it in or much of anything else done. I submitted some random bullshit for my two years of being diabetic; but for the most part I have not been here, submitting what I should or coming up with other things even.

This time however, it's not even really my health that's been keeping me away and off the road of promised submissions.

My Papa [[ Grandfather ]] had recently come up with merca among a slew of other health problems, with stats that were very concerning revolving around his health as a diabetic, an alcoholic, and a person in general. Luckily; he's pulled through. He looks better than ever and has lost a lot of weight; most of it was water weight. There were scares of possible heart failure ect ect ect. But he's fine now and he's looking and acting better than he has in the past two years.

My Aunt Jo however, has recently [[ 03-29-2009 ]] died. We'd had her in the hospital for a random spontanious sudden sever illness. 911ed her out of the house and everything. She's had juvinile rumatoid arthritis since she was quite young. But she died from meningitis. I know I'm spelling all of these things horridly, please forgive me. Weakened immune system, ect ect. She was living off of machines, and her husband [[ my uncle ken ]] finally had to pull the plug, and let her body die. Her brain had already died.


And now; my damn near two month running boyfriend and four year running best guy friend Brian has been coming down with severe chest pains, ontop of a depression he won't talk about with me and recently a friend of mine that I considered to be a very close friend has been growing away from me and another very good guy friend of mine is having troubles that he's turning to me for help with on. Not that I mind that at all! I luv him and I'm always there for a friend despite anything else that goes on around me.


It just feels as if it's been half a year already, just dealing with my own health issues and worrying about and having to deal and cope with everyone elses health issues as well. I've been stressed out, and emotionally wrung through. So again, I'll have to apologize for not getting the things I promised done, done.


Actually, I've done a lot of drawing. I did in fact re-draw 's character, but I didn't like it. Wound up finding the first one I did and quite honestly I just don't feel satisfied with either. But I'll post them up as soon as I can get around to doing so; and I feel compelled to color them with photoshop, so I'll probably take longer just for that.


I'm going to get running. I have coloring to get done and such. I'm sorry, my life here has been getting overwhelming as it constantly does, and it's gotten in the way again, and it makes me look a mighty poor person here for those of you that I've honestly enjoyed talking with and doing art for/with. I've missed you all and hopefully you won't think too ill of me. Luv to you all and hopefully you all are having a much better time with life. <3

Oh. My. Goodness!

I'm terribly sorry to you all! I haven't been on D.A. in such a long time! I'd had well over eight hundred deviations; and I only managed to get through a good two to three hundred of them between time restraints and my computer being an ass to me before I said screw it and just deleted them all D:

I am absolutly possitive however that you've ALL done FANTASTIC work and I'm terribly sorry if I haven't been around to gloat over how much of a brilliant group you all are, and I'm sorry I haven't the time or patience with my computer to look at all of your guys's beautiful works!



In other news I have posted some rather old and one new peice of artwork just to let you know I'm not actually dead... you know... for the few that actually like and or care about any of that? X3 I have no illusions of being a fantastic artist, and I really appreciate those of you who actually do look at and or like my art, it means a lot to me really! <3 So many kudo's to you all and I'm going to put this as a special sort of shout out to <3 He's probably the sweetest most active watcher I've got and his work is fantastic! You should go check him out, seriously! [[ Oh yes, that's right, I just put you in the limelight! X3 ]]


I must apologize profusely! D: I know I promised a work featuring her character Jessa! -Falls to her knees and hails to you- I am not worthy! DX I had indeed done such a peice, however I have managed to actually LOSE my sketchbook with the art work in it! D; I'm SO sorry! I am still on the hunt for it and if all else fails I suppose I'll simply do another. If you'd prefer I do something else or would like something extra [[ sort of like interest XD ]] for such a ridiculously long and ongoing hold up and wait on it feel free to let me know and I will try my damnedest! :3 is also an incredibly brilliant and fantastic artist, and I highly recomend running along and viewing her art as well! <3 [[ More shameless throwing you all in the limelight! XD ]]



I suppose it's time for the explination of my absence eh? And a few other updates yes no? At this point I would advise that if you have no interest in what has been going on with my health or other useless ramblings of my life to stop reading this. I'm sure it's going to be a lengthy one!


Right then! I have been gone due to -Surprise surprise- Health Issues! = _ = Yaaay.

I've been over my head in school work with sugars that refuse to regulate. In fact, today I didn't dip below four hundred but maybe once or twice. -nods- So; yeah. Still a very sickly unhealthy diabetic. WHICH REMINDS ME! X3 My diabetes anniversery is tomorrow! Yes that's right. The day I was actually diagnosed with type one diabetes is tomorrow. I am torn between hating it and wanting to celebrate a bit. XD Anywho, I've been on homebound schooling for the majority of the year now. D: So that sucks. I've become a reclusive craving socialization stir crazy seventeen year old girl! ... Well okay, so I've always been a girl that's nothing new, but you get what I mean X3

A lot of my abscence has been due to just not being able to get on here, and forgetting about it entirely. :/ And I'm sorry, the sugars tend to effect me psychologically as well and Deviantart got lost in the horrid mass of forgetful insanity that's been taking place. I've suffered a lot of mental stress and break downs but I'm doing much better. -nods- Er, mentally wise that is.



GOOD NEWS! Yes yes, lets carry right on to the good news because no one likes bad news! Good news is, I have found a select few friends that I realize are actual and honest to god GOOD friends. It makes me incredibly happy and I'd explain but it's complicated. I also now have a boyfriend, who happens to be one of those people. XD I've known him and been friends with him since the ninth grade, and we started dating the first or second of Feb. So, huzzah to that in my opinion! It's pretty fantastic. Which is weird; because normally I don't really care or take the time to tell people about my supposed "love life". So I suppose, you've been warned. If I start submitting a lot of artwork that's revolving around the two of us, it's because I'm ridiculously smitten and thats the only way I can express it I suppose. -nods-

More good news, is that I've been a bit reinspired recently to get my bum back into drawing and what have you. I doubt you'll see much more poetry from me. I know I submitted three or four peices, but that was an extreamly rare scenerio. XD Although I have taken a bit of thought to submitting fan liturature. Much like another friend of mine !! She is an AMAZING writer and I highly recomend checking out her account as well! :3 Especially if you like Doctor Who and a fantastic read! <3 [[ Many apologies; I'm SO far behind on your writings, I fear I may never catch up! D: ]]

Whelp; I've got a pack of low carb monster energy drinks, a commision to either find or re-do and a million and one ideas buzzing in my head! So I'm going to leave you all here :3 Again I highly recommend checking out the mentioned Deviants! And if you have any questions, comments, tips, or anything at all you'd like to say or put out there feel free! ... O.o; Why do I get the feeling that comment alone could spell trouble for me? XD

Anywhom, I luv you all and I wish you all well!

- Day Dreamer [[ Not on DA ]]


She's the only person I think I have to do anything for at the moment, and right now I'm on like, an artistic high? SO, if I've ever promised to do something for you I'm terribly sorry but I've flat forgot! D:

SO, feel free tp remind me or requesting things!
Although~ As always, I'm going to need referrances to whatever you'd like. ^ -^; I'm not a fantastic artist so I'll still need to know what I'm dealing with before I even attempt to draw it.

-Pouts- I can't really guarentee the quality, I tried drawing something for and in my oppinon it came out TERRIBLE! D<

So, actually, I think I may end up trying to re-do something for you !!!


But yes, feel free to take advantage of my artist high, because I have a feeling before long I'll wind up with an artist block! XD

So, I think I'm on a life high. Which is fantastic for the time being, but it does scare me to remember that every life high comes crashing down eventually.


Recently I've felt that I've improved a lot on my artwork, despite my ever negativity towards my art some of it I have to sit and stare at trying to convince myself that Yes, I really did draw something like that. Which is thrilling in itself, and is giving me a new drive to get into drawing more and more!


Also, recently, I've found myself with butterflies all bound up in my chest and fluttering about as hard as they can causing a rollercoaster feeling effect to just my chest. Yeah, so I've sort of grown dreadfully attached to someone I don't even really know, that I've been roleplaying with [[ Yes, it's probably exactly who you're thinking ]].

It's strange when I stay up all night long just to chat with them, and wait with holding breath for each new message. -Shakes her head- What can I say, despite my ever despise for the lovey dovey romantic crap I do have my fall throughs, and when I do actually fall it tends to be ridiculously sappy and cliche'. Of course, it only seems to get worse when a certain book store I go to has a manager I've happened to like for years now. XD

BUT that crap aside. I guess I just wanted to type up a journal entery because right now I'm ever so happy, ever so chipper, ever so just, up and lively and all sorts of things <3 Hopefully it's infectious and you all can get a chuckle or a smile <3

I luv you guys and I think I'll adore you all for the rest of time. -Laughs-

Wholy SHIT FUCK!!!

Okay, so recently I thought it was absolutly AMAZING and amusing that got a comment thanking her for the best 3-pre-day birthday something or another.

This comment of hers was from "Nobody" Dated December 31st of 1969.

I was like, whoa, that's pretty damn cool. Wonderful actually, I thought it ever so nifty.


WELL I'm going through my comments, hiding them and what not when I come across a comment. Oh yes.

From Nobody dated December 31st 1969. At first I thought it HAD to be a glitch from Deviantart. But mine had a completely different message. Although, it was apparently sent at the exact same time as 's.


Mine just says "You are most welcome <3"

O.o; Uhm... whoa?
I kid you not it freaked me out. I'd thought when I read the original one that it might be exciting and nifty and cool to get one like that. But it made me stop dead in my tracks and stare as I gradually got more and more concerned about it.

Probably because had referranced Doctor Who and Time Travler with her's. And I've been talking to someone on another site who poses as The Doctor, and I do have to admit that they play a very convincing Doctor. They havent even givin inklings that they're anything but and they're always consistant.

And I figure you know, just some really good roleplayer.

But recently I had a sort of mental break down and this person was the one who had me smilling and singing and feeling absolutly fantastic within a message or two. I never actually thanked him/her even though I really really really appreciated it.

So it was very strange to me to get this post which I already had in my mind affiliated with Doctor Who and have it telling me I was welcome for something? Granted I couldn't really see The Doctor using a heart? BUT it's an ever so spooky pleasant feeling to imagine it just might be. <3



If you havent already I think everyone should start looking through their comments and seeing if they get a comment from a Nobody from the date of December 31 1969 at 4:00:00 PM. It's absolutly brilliant, and really? If it is a Deviantart glitch, I kinda really hope they don't do anything about it <3